You don’t trust me, was the worst thing he could have said to her. Mathilde looked at Cadmus with dark eyes, and he knew that he had said the wrong thing.
When she was younger aside from him making her feel like she was desperate and clingy, every time she questioned how he felt he would say something like you don’t trust me when she asked if there was someone else. There never was that she knew of, but the way he made her feel was not much better—empty and like the person that obviously loved more in their relationship.
He pulled her close to him.
“I cannot make up for everything, I cannot make the past go away but I promise never to hurt you like that ever again. You are here with me, doesn’t that mean you want this to work? That you want me?”
“I always wanted you…I never have wanted anyone like I wanted you. I have never been the same since you left me…”
“You have changed, but you are still so beautiful inside and outside. No one ever loved me like you do.”
“Cleo?”
“She doesn’t love me like you do.”
He kissed her neck, and Mathilde pulled her hair away from her neck so he could kiss her there without getting her long dark hair in his mouth. The hair she thought hid her from her past, but had not hidden her from anything.
“You’ve changed too,” she said, kissing his neck her hands between his legs and she was not ashamed of letting him know what she wanted…
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