Wicked Wednesday #238 -- Preparation

Preparation for her upcoming wedding made Eliza nervous. Sitting at the bar by herself was so dèjá vü, of when she was first there lamenting over her fate.

And she met Oscar.

This time she was meeting Oscar, because she wanted to meet him.

Oscar looked at her, as he slipped onto the stool beside her.

Josephine looked at them knowingly behind the bar, and Eliza avoided her eyes.

She was seeing Oscar because she needed to, but it was not like before. Nothing was going to happen between them, they were not in that place anymore.

“When you met me, what was I like? I mean about the wedding?” she asked him softly.

Oscar stared at her for while, before he asked,

“What do you mean?”
“Was I a mess? What did you see? How did I come off?”

“You looked like the weight of the world was on your shoulders,” he said, putting his hands on her shoulders. “You’re so tense.”

Eliza put her hands over his, and closed her eyes.

“I’m a mess Oscar, I needed you to see me to know if I looked the same way as I did when you met me. When you picked me up, and we became…”

He held her hands.

“You do not have to do anything you do not want to do Eliza,” he said, twisting her engagement ring.

“I want to get married,” she said quickly. “I always wanted to be married to Rafe, but it was the planning, the things I discovered about him that I did not know. But I love him.”

She shot a look at Oscar. Even though he was with Polly again, it was hard for her to say that to him. Or if it was not hard to say to him, she realized how heavy it was to say that after what they had been to each other and he did not even know about Terrence.

“Thank you for permission though, I love you for that. I love you for everything…” Eliza said.

She looked at him for a long time, their eye contact was bold and meaningful. With Oscar, she often did not need words. He was part of her preparation for everything, she thought as she looked away from him and twisted her engagement ring.

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