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A Darker Flame: Lost in the Snow

When Dean took her to Iceland, Stella knew that he had an ulterior motive. She was pretty sure that he did not suspect her episode with Elijah at the premiere, but he knew he was there and that was probably more than enough for him. Stella found out Dean’s ulterior motive sooner than later…he was thinking about a film made here.
Dean was a bit of a control freak, sometimes she suspected that he directed their lives as well. Maybe she was feeling negative because the days were so short. It was four in the afternoon, and it looked like deep evening. She was lying in a hot tub and felt completely relaxed. She was alone, and happy to be in one place.The Faroe Islands was also a possible location, and they were constantly in a helicopter for there to go from place to place. Here the warm water made her feel drowsy…and aroused.
With her eyes closed, she was not seeing Dean even though she was imagining how she wanted her desire quenched. Everything had been fine between her and Dean until the damn premiere, when she ran from Elijah. Her dreams that night and for several nights after had been penetrated by Elijah. She woke in the mornings with a heat that spread over her, that she was sure was Elijah, like this huldufolk myth that she had learned in Iceland. Hidden people in the firm of elves or fairies. She of course did not believe in such things, but what else would explain the tactile warmth that spread over her every morning whether she slept with Dean or not?
Elijah had made her come at the premiere, and the thing was she was thinking about him before she confused him for Dean. She was watching him on the screen making love to her, and wanting him in her thoughts or fantasies? Why was her life like the premise of the movie that she had been in with Elijah? Why was he now the other she could not stop thinking about the way she had thought about Didier as Adora in the film?
Stella fell asleep, on waking she was hurried out and left. Dean was in the front, and she happily was not that late for his pickup. He kissed her and she sighed softly, she was still in the mood.
“We are going to have drinks with some potential producers. When I told them you might think about the film they were delighted.”
“Me?”
“Well of course honey, who else but you? My muse?”
He squeezed her thigh.
Was it her guilt that kept her quiet? Or the impending darkness outside? It was dark so early, and cold. Stella almost felt like she was being held hostage: actually by Dean and mentally by Elijah.
Time rolled into itself, they had dinner. Stella like the Icelandic cuisine, Dean not so much. She knew he planned on drinking heartily as he always did. She knew to be careful with the potent Icelandic Brennevin, she believed it was called the Black Death…
When they got to the bar, her plans to be modest with her drinking were diminished when she saw the producers.
And Elijah.
A warm flush flooded her and she almost felt faint, but it was then she was handed a shot of Brennevin.
And kept them coming, to form a kind of death of her own. She sat next to Elijah because it was the only choice and for the first time in Iceland, she felt like she was in the middle of a heatwave. When she gazed at Dean, his expression was inscrutable.
She and Elijah had been too successful, they wanted a sequel to their film. More than tipsy, Stella barely even understood the plot as it was spun aloud. Dean did not look surprised, she felt blindsided.
“Did you know about this?” Elijah asked her, his breath fell on her like a dragon’s fire.
“No,”
“Dean did not tell you?”
Stella was ashamed, clearly she was the only one out of the loop.
She downed another shot.
They migrated to the hotel where they were all staying apparently and Stella felt like she was on a set. She wobbled and almost felt in the lobby. Elijah grabbed her.
“I am sorry Stell, I thought you knew.”
Don’t play a patron saint with me, you made me come at the premiere.”
“I can make you come now too,” he said under his breath.
“You wouldn’t dare. Dean is here!”
“Did that stop me the last time?”
Stella was on complete fire now, she was afraid he would and she wanted him to.
“Listen Stella, you are in on this now. Enjoy the ride, and you know what I mean.”
Suddenly Iceland was the hottest place on earth, even though she was lost in the snow…

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Wicked Wednesday — Merry Christmas

Polly was somewhere between wake and sleep, thinking to herself that Oscar did not really know her.
She did not tell him about the time that she was dressed as Little Bo Peep, she had kept it a seductive secret, and he had went along with it. But now she remembered that time, and driving with the guy that was with her.
Driving down a road that barely had any lights. All he could do was drive down the yellow line as the headlights shined on it. She was in the backseat of the car, quiet and dazed. There was a drop of blood on her white Little Bo Peep costume. Her finger kept caressing the tiny wound on the inside of her arm as she looked out of the window at the woods. She careseed where she had been opened, her flesh a tiny slice because Colin wanted to taste her. Taste her blood. The first time he told her, she thought he was joking. But when she had a paper cut, and he sucked her cut so slowly and sensually she knew otherwise.
She thought that Goth had to have a certain kind of look. But Colin did not have that. He was gentle and tender with her, but it was not her lifestyle.
But she let him cut her, and suck from her. She felt giddy that night driving with him, and it was a cute thing to do when she was young. They were young and in love and it was wonderful while it lasted.
She met him years later, an eclectic art buyer as a potential client…it was different that time when they were both adults, but she was too driven to really be committed to him, Colin accepted that of her.
He still liked to taste her, he was the only man she had ever been with who enjoyed making love when she had her period. No one else had ever liked that. But he did. His blood lust at that time was more incidental.
He was the one who loved de Lempickas, and he was still a client. But now he lived in Paris.
She was standing in front of the Eiffel Tower, and saw Colin. His intense face studying hers. When he touched her, so softly she was not even sure that he was touching her, her face got very damp. It was snowing and it felt like Christmas, but her face was more moist than the falling snow would have made it. She thought she was bleeding, but he was bleeding instead when he held his hand before her and she shook in the dream then opened her eyes.
Awake again, she touched her face, and all she felt was the soft drool that was on the side of her mouth and she could smell Oscar’s warm scent. She looked at him, and he stared at her. She smiled, as he touched her face the same way that Colin had touched her face in the dream. Shivering in a way that she played off more as desire, she remembered how every time she dreamt about Colin he would return in her life. Especially if she felt him the way that she felt him in her between and actual dream state.
But she was with Oscar now, Oscar who made her feel light, and who probably would never go to that blood place with her. That vampiric desire that she felt with Colin, a dark desire that she loved incredibly but that she could never live with forever.
Blood was not forever.
Polly caressed Oscar and his warmth was so alive, so lovely. She pressed her body to him, and he held her close.
“You are pure as the driven snow,” he said to her.
Kissing him, his taste was lovely. Light. She flicked her tongue as if trying to catch snow as a child, returning his kiss.
Not quite, she thought, not quite so pure as that. But she loved that he saw her that way…now…

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Guest Blogger Dario Dalla Lasta Talks Squeeze Pants, and a Delicious Excerpt!

So you might know that I am featured in this little anthology called Chemical [se]X, which has gotten a great deal of accolade. In the process, I got to communicate with a lot of fabulous authors and developed quite the author crush on Dario Dalla Lasta. Dario has so much going on, I am breathless just thinking about it! He has a brand new anthology out called Squeeze Pants published by the fabulous Go Deeper Press! His erotica is sexy, fun and filled with a lot of emotion. Dario is my guest today, offering a little commentary on the pieces that I love by him–both of which include toilet stalls–and talking just a bit about the nature of desire.

Without further ado–here’s Dario first on his process, followed by a delicious excerpt!

As for my fascination with toilet stalls, what’s not to love? There is always something (or someone) of interest in a restroom. Every since I was a child, I’ve been both obsessed and repelled by public/school restrooms; they’re scary and stinky, private and public, revolting and sexy. And bathroom graffiti alone is worth the trip. I still remember a childish scribble on a YMCA bathroom stall when I was taking swimming lessons as a young boy: “Here I sit, brokenhearted, paid a dime and only farted.” I have never forgotten that, even after 40 years! Obviously, I’ve had several incidents in bathrooms that were major turn-ons. Living in New York amongst several million people, you find yourself crowded into bathrooms on a regular basis. Especially at bars. Plus, stalls are an easy refuge to escape to for some deliciously deviant behavior with another buddy. Both of my stories (“[du]X” from the “Chemical [se]X” anthology and “Marble Sentinels” from “Squeeze Pants”) are partly autobiographical. I had a delicious run-in with a hot stud I had known for years, back when the Roxy nightclub had roller skating nights. He was definitely my muse for that erotic story! “Marble Sentinels” came about because of my crush on the superintendent of the building where I used to work. The mens’ bathroom there had two large, old-fashioned marble urinals that were just ripe for fantasizing about. I guess I like having a back story about men desiring one other over a period of time. The timing needs to be right, and “timing is everything” or so it’s been said. I myself have had years-long obsessions with boys that never came to fruition, so writing about it happening to characters from my imagination was cathartic.

Two minutes. In only two minutes, the studly superintendent’s cock will be mine. I adjust the junk in my boxer shorts, pop a breath mint, and walk as casually as possible back to the bathroom, praying no one else blocks my way. I’m in luck. The sign is still up and there’s no one around. This time, when I push on the door, it swings open into a darkened room, the white linoleum and marbled equipment barely a gleam in the gloom. “Hello?” I whisper. No answer. I dare not flick the light switch on, hoping to keep the pretense up of the toilet being closed for repairs. Instead, I carefully feel my way over to the last stall on the left, where I let myself in and wait. After a few tense moments, the swinging door opens, the click of a lock falls into place, and a pair of footsteps shuffles my way. “Pssst! Where you at?” “In here.” He knows exactly where I am. The stall door pushes open, and immediately a pair of arms wrap around my waist, his soft lips crushing against mine with feverish intent. He must be even hornier than me. I kiss back with just as much fervor while entwining my arms around his sinewy back until my hands rest on his ass shelf. Damn, boy has got a booty on him. My erection makes its presence known, especially after Joey’s packed crotch grinds against mine. His dick feels like a coiled snake, ready to strike. I throw my head back for a succession of kisses he plants along my neck. Our excitement echoes within the tiled walls, escalating as our fumblings turn more intense. By this point, my hands crawl up his shirt, playing with his nipples and smoothing down his fuzzy six pack. His tongue twirls in my ear, and his hot breath pours down the side of my face, ratcheting up my hotness to the boiling point. My cock drips with pre-come, the wetness spreading by the minute. Frantically, I begin undoing his belt by touch alone, my eyes blind in the dark, my tongue now swirling inside his mouth, trying to taste him, to get deeper inside this hunky man who I’ve been pining away for, this sexy stud who kisses me like a long-lost lover. No doubt he hasn’t kissed another man in quite some time from the way he paws at me. The belt buckle undone, I unzip his pants to discover an insistent pecker knocking on my knuckles trying to get out of its tight cage. No problem there. I pull the briefs down his thighs and disengage our mouths to concentrate on what has sprung out of his pants. A lively and long beast, from the feel of it. My palm runs up and down the silky length of it, and I grasp the burning shaft in my fist, squeezing all the way to the tip until a drop of semen seeps out. My finger swipes at it, and I lick it off. Joey squirms under my touch and swoops down to bite my nipple. When his teeth start to hurt me, I push him back so that I can fall to my knees and begin worshipping that gorgeous cock with my hungry mouth and loving hands. After a few sucks, his knees tremble and he almost pulls out. I refuse to let that happen and keep his cock right where it is. He relents, exhales loudly, and grabs the back of my neck. Forcing himself further down my throat, he pushes all the way in until I gag. My eyes begin watering; no doubt from happiness, at this point. He feels so good in there that I know his perfect-sized dick belongs in my mouth. He must agree with me, for then he begins face-fucking me faster and harder until his erection is ramming down my esophagus like a piston. Like I give a shit. I suck as if his dick is oxygen giving me life. I live for his fingers mauling my hair, for his groans of pleasure, for the nasty slurping sounds I make, and for the jizz that builds up in his bouncy balls that slap my chin. I want to drain him dry. “I’m—I’m gonna come,” he pants in ragged breaths. I egg him on by jerking his shaft while the dripping head is still plunged down my gullet, my tongue slathering up his pillar so much that strings of spit hang from the sides of my mouth. When he hits his orgasm, he yelps like a wounded creature, and I almost choke from the spurts that coat my throat, losing count of the repetitions. Swallowing as fast as I can, I hold him in place until his heaving subsides, loving his spent tool resting on my tongue. I don’t want to let him go. After a few moments, I reluctantly release him when he growls, “Now it’s your turn, captain. Get over to the urinals. Now!” Standing up on shaky legs, I swallow again, the salty sweetness of his come lingering in my mouth. Like the come slut I am, I want more. Curbing my appetites is a constant struggle, especially since I seem to have forgotten that glorious taste. It’s been a while, okay? Joey drags me out of the stall and pushes me toward the two stately sentries that hug the wall as they have for decades. What have they seen? How many cocks have expelled yellow piss down their drains? A staggering number fills my brain. “See these two urinals?” he asks me. “We’ve spent lots of time standing in front of them. I know how much you love them and how often you stare at my dick when we’re going next to other.” Not answering, I merely nod, even though he can barely see me in the dark. “So, because of that, I want you to fuck me right here, right now, so that you always think of me when you take a piss here. I wanna breathe the urinals in as I bend over them and you plow me from behind. ’Cause you’re gonna shoot up my ass, got it? Here,” he continues, placing something into my hand. A condom. The man comes prepared. I place it in my pocket until it is needed. But first things first. “Pull your pants down and bend over,” I order. What I am about to do is incomprehensible to me, although I am not about to let this opportunity pass by. Joey complies as instructed and immediately his pants are down about his boots, his butt poised like a dancer in Magic Mike. What I cannot discern clearly in the shadows has already been memorized in my mind. I kneel down behind him and pry his butt cheeks apart, exhaling with desire at the deed. Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine eating out Joey’s ass. My tongue reaches his pucker hole instantly, and when I lick it hungrily, he instinctually moves back to me, asking for more. Rising to the challenge, I adjust my knees and get comfortable, planning to be down there for as long as possible. Once there’s an ass in my face to devour, I’m content. The super doesn’t let me down. He allows me all the time I want, and in between working over his hole, I run my tongue over the entire length of his crack, stopping here and there to lick his taint and fondle his ball sack, which drives him wild. He tastes both sweet and tart down there, an unusual combination I find as compelling as an aphrodisiac. As a result, I gobble his ass like a ravenous pig and drill my tongue so far up his tasty hole that the fucking has already commenced. His whimpers fill me with encouragement, and before long, my cock is in one hand with his in the other. I stroke our dicks in time to my tongue thrusts until I almost shoot on the cold floor. I pinch my dick to stop the convulsions, deciding to bring this madness to the next level. Besides, he is more than ready for me to enter; I mean, after all, the dude’s salad has been dutifully tossed. Now the condom can come out.

Wicked Wednesday #133 — Chest Hair

Eliza was on her stomach on Oscar’s bed. She could smell him on the sheets, in the room.
That he was there, that he had been in the hotel room. Mindlessly she kissed the mattress, ran her fingers over the sheet like it was the path of Oscar’s chest hair. Balling the sheet in her first, she remembered herself.
It was wrong for her to be upset that he was with someone else, that she expected Shanghai to be their place because it had been so magical for them when they were there before. Even with Fiona in the middle of her crisis…
Fiona had not been surprised that she was going to Shanghai, nor was Rafe. Oscar was the reason that she had agreed to open their relationship in the first place, because she could not put away what she felt for him. Other things had happened since then. Marcus…she was not sure about that, but it was something she was not thinking about when she opened her relationship up. She was thinking about Oscar, why she had come to Shanghai now.
It had never occurred to her that Oscar would be with someone else. He was with someone else and she was lying on his bed in his hotel room alone, waiting for him.
On her back, her fingers ran absently over her own chest. Her fingers caressing her breasts, their softness soothing to her while she waited.
There was nothing else she could do.
The beep of him coming into the room, made her slip her hand out of her blouse where she had been fully caressing her own breast imagining it was Oscar doing it.
He stood at the foot of the bed and looked down at her.
“I feel awkward, like I should say sorry. But there is nothing for me to be sorry about,” he sais
Eliza let her feet touch the ground.
“I am sorry, I can leave Oscar–”
Oscar put his hands on her shoulders when she stood up in front of him.
“Don’t guilt trip me Eliza.”
Eliza wanted to glare at him with hatred, but being close to him…it was all she had been fueled with coming to Shanghai. Why the long flight was manageable. Thinking about him looking at her, touching her.
She stared at him.
“I missed you.”
He pushed a strand of hair out of her face.
“You did not tell me you were coming.”
“If I had, would it have made a difference? Would I have found you alone?”
“Are you alone in New York? Were you ever alone any of the time that we were together? I have to be celibate while you are open?”
Eliza picked up her purse, and buttoned her blouse. She knew he was right, but she did want him to only be with her. It was awful, but that was what she wanted. Not another woman making Shanghai not their place anymore.
“I said I can go,” she snapped.
Oscar smirked.
“Go.”
Eliza walked past him, saw that she had misbuttoned her blouse and stopped to fix it.
“You’re going to let me go?”
“You said you wanted to go twice. You came here Eliza, you know your own agenda.”
“I do.”
She walked to the door, before her hand was on the knob, she turned to him.
“I know I am wrong, but it is how I feel. Can you imagine how I feel?”
She stared at him.
“And what about me? I was with someone new and you came to Shanghai. Our place. How do you think I feel?
“Look, here is my card. Call me. I know now is not the time, but I am here. I am here…”
Eliza stared at the Shanghai skyline, that was almost as familiar to her as the New York one. Familiar skylines and unfamiliar emotional territory.

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And The Winner Is…

I have been writing since I was 7 years old. I like to make the comparison that I do it the same way that birds makes nests and bees make honey…instinctively. If you ask me if I am good at it, the best I can offer you is that I am good with words. Written, verbally, aurally…which is why it means so very much when someone tells me I am a good writer. Especially someone who I believe is a good writer. Horny Geek Girl nominated me for a Bad Girl Blogger award. I cannot say enough about how I value the honesty and emotion that drives her work, so to have her value mine means so much to me. Along with this nomination, I am going to nominate five other bloggers aside from Horny Geek Girl that I adore…in alphabetical order…

Flutterby Flip much like Horny Geek Girl, writes honest and emotional pieces that take my breath away. In addition, she writes in a poetic style that I can feel myself feeling exactly the way she does line by line. And she takes ridiculously beautiful photographs. She is simply beautiful.

Malin James is just masterful. Her fiction and nonfiction are like master classes in the genre. Even her e-mails are stunning! She just knows how to make her subjects tactile, anything seems palatable when she describes it and I love it.

Marie Rebelle is a marvel to me. She writes in two languages, is an artist, takes amazing photographs and everything comes from the heart. She is like a butterfly that just is, no cocoon, just is beautiful with full wings and filled with the most honest beauty. Her latest piece for e-lust is just stunning, floored me. And she nominated me as one of her top 20 bloggers of 2014. I feel happily lachrymose, just thinking about how much that means to me coming from her.

Oleander Plume is my role model. I do not know anyone who is as flawlessly prolific as she is. I adore everything I love about her, that I see in her work as well. Her fiction makes me envious, and her nonfiction is so real, so heartbreakingly gorgeous…Shameless plug you can see her fiction, my fiction and Malin’s in Chemical [se]X.

Charlie of Sex Blog (of Sorts) is a fellow Francophile like myself, and a flawless blogger. I greedily devour her posts like a chocolate bonbon. Carelessly unwrapped, and each word savored on my mind.

There are so many bloggers I love–be sure to look at Horny Geek Girl’s and Marie Rebelle’s posts for more! Now I offer my nominees to follow the rules below, and use the Bad Girl Blogger award using the logo below:

RULES: If you are a recipient, please choose 3-5 female bloggers who write about sex (or post sexy pics of themselves, or both) that you admire and award them by passing on the award photo above and the rules. Also, give a brief explanations of why you love those bloggers so much. Be sure to notify your favourite bloggers that they got the award!

Thank you again HGG and Rebelle, you humbled me…

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Wicked Wednesday #132 — Dead Skeletons

Oscar liked Polly asleep in his arms. She was soft and smelled sweet of perfume: the one she wore and her natural scent. Her soft snoring let him know she was tired, so he lie there staring at her. Sometimes he almost dozed with the sweetness of her, her scent and her breath on his face and arms.
And then he would wake up. This time, his own drool like hers had been on him when she fell asleep that first time in the car, on the mattress.
And then he woke up, as if from a nightmare.
He got out of the bed softly so he did not wake up Polly. He reached for his jacket, and fished for his phone which was turned off.
On, it alerted him to a text from Eliza.

Where are you? I am in Shanghai…

Oscar felt heart palpitations. He had not even put on his shoes, as he walked into the hallway. He did not want to make the call in the room with Polly. He could still feel her breath on him.
Was it his guardian angel that got him out of the bed, and into the hallway where he saw Eliza?
“Eliza…”
She wrapped her arms about him quickly. He stared at her half from disbelief, half from the bit of happiness that would always be there when he saw her.
“Oscar,” she squeezed him again. “I wanted to surprise you, and I told them I was your wife and left a hefty tip…I was in the room. But you were not there…”
He looked in her eyes, and he knew that she knew even without saying anything. That she knew that there was something that she knew, that she did not want to know.
“I was out with a colleague.”
“A woman.”
Eliza answered her own question and looked at him.
He nodded.
“You were with this woman…”
Oscar nodded. He felt guilty at first, but then he realized that her was no need. He was not married or engaged to her. She was engaged to someone, before he ever fell in love with her.
The entire time he was with Polly this time in Shanghai, he realized that was what he was infatuated with as much as Polly. That there was nothing that he had to think about besides her. He liked that.
There were no dead skeletons that he had to think about, that he knew about at least.
“Eliza, I love you, but I walked out of the room and she was sleeping and I want to be there when she wakes up. This is the key to my room, the extra. Wait there.”
Eliza took the key and nodded. He was not sure if she was dazed by the shock, or if she was okay but she walked to his room which was further down the hall.
He looked after her, and went back into Polly’s room, got in the bed and lie there again.
Polly still slept and he stared at her now with less joy, and a bit more fear.
He wanted her, he wanted her so much. Her breath warm on his, her eyes when she woke up focused on him. Lulled by her softness, he fell asleep.
In his dreams, Eliza chased him.

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Wicked Wednesday #131 — World AIDS Day

Polly swore she saw light when she looked at Oscar in the alley that they stumbled into after karaoke. His light lit the way to their driver, and her head secure on his shoulder as they drove back to their hotel.
It was late and dark, they went to her hotel room and she spun around the room in her qipao as if she had on a flared skirt. Oscar put his hand on her hip, and they danced around the room. When she looked at the moon, she thought to herself what if he wanted to? She had not been expecting anything to happen between them, so she did not have protection. She knew that there was something between them, but now what? Nothing has been said, and she honestly was old-fashioned. But what would he expect? She bought him to her room so late.
He paused to stare at the moon beside her.
Sex was never something she rushed into. Her mother named her after her friend, a flower child who she had pictures of with huge flowers and butterflies painted all over her.
Polly never could imagine that her mother had been friends with that Polly. That her mother had been so free. Because when she was growing up, AIDS new and fresh. People feared getting it, by looking at someone. She remembered sex ed classes, where they said you could not tell if someone had it by looking at them. No matter how healthy they looked.
Oscar looked beautiful to her now. More so than he ever had in the entire time that she knew him. He raised her face to his, the light of the moon eclipsed by his.
“Tell me,”
She blinked repeatedly from the moonlight and the intensity of his gaze.
“Oscar,” she started, and then she was quiet.
“What?” his voice was soft as he caressed her cheek.
“I just don’t want to move so fast? I asked you up here, and I just don’t want to…rush anything…”
Oscar looked at her. She tried not to cry because she was not sure what he was going to say, as he turned to face the moon.
“I did not come up here with expectations. We were both drinking, and I just wanted to make sure you got back here safe…” He caressed her chin and looked at her, his face close enough to kiss. “And for this.”
He kissed her, and the light that she saw when she closed her eyes was a combination of him and the moon.
She wrapped her arms about him and he pulled her closer, ran his fingers along her neck and further down like she was the treasured instrument of a musician. She wondered if he had ever played anything…
He stopped kissing her, and then he laughed.
“What?” she said looking and him and laughing a little, even though she did not know why.
He leaned on the window sill.
“Because I remember not even being able to be in the same room with you.”
“”Oscar–”
“No,” He said putting his finger on her mouth. “I just feel good that we got past all the barriers, because you are so beautiful inside and out.”
He kissed her again, and Polly felt like she had been painted with flowers and butterflies…

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A Darker Flame: Remember, Remember…

They came to the opening late. It was November 5, and Dean bemoaned not being in the UK for Bonfire Night festivities. Stella smirked at him, told him that he was a bit of a traitor himself and he should be content with that. The filth that he whispered in her ear, made her forget about her remaining bristle with him about the things that had happened leading up to the opening.
Plus she loved the hell out of his sexy British accent. He cradled one of her buttocks, then slapped it so hard that Stella looked around to see if anyone had noticed.
The filming for Menaced, short from The Menaced Assassin, the Magritte painting that loosely inspired it was so long ago…so many things had happened since. She was discreet as her hand slipped into Dean’s. She had had so little contact with Elijah, since the blow-up over the leaking of their actual lovemaking during a scene. A small part of Eliza believed that Dean had done it on purpose because he wanted her for himself. He swore that it was not like that, but did she really care now? Elijah had been irate, and they had broken up. The breakup has been devastating for her, because she was with Elijah in her real and pretend roles in life. Dean was conveniently there to pick up her pieces, and they had been together ever since.
Sitting in the back of the screening, she rested either arm on arms of her seat. Dean continued to whisper filthy things that he wanted to do to her, and she tried not to make a sound. He stood up suddenly. She had not memorized the sequences in the film, it was that scene.
That scene.
“Come on, let’s go! It is almost the end–”
Stella was frozen in her seat.
“I have to watch it Dean, I have avoided it all this time. I have to see it just this once…”
“Fuck me if I am going to sit here and watch it! I will be outside…”
She was dreaming about the masquerade when she looked at the screen again. In her seat, she was squirming. When their masks kissed onscreen, she wished that she was wearing a mask. She hoped that no one noticed that she was there in the back, watching herself fuck Elijah on the screen.
And then, somewhere through it the scene, Dean came and sat back down next to her. She put her hand over his jacket sleeve.
“I just need to see it this once, just this once to not be afraid…”
When she saw herself and her expressions and the way she was caressing Elijah…she gasped. Dean put his hand over her mouth, and kissed her neck. She stilled and he moved his hand, continued to kiss her neck. Stella was silent, even though she squirmed in her seat all the more. Dean roughly pulled up her skirt, and she knew he was pleased that she was already wet from the way his fingers caressed her there…slowly, like Elijah used to. He pushed one finger into her, caressed her lips so she would not cry out. She saw herself faux making love to Elijah on the screen later in the scene, but she was thinking about making love to him for real in her mind.
And then as he added another finger, and another and she was about to burst. She buried her face in his shoulder, and then she knew.
She had not been imagining Elijah.
She closed her legs tightly, but it was too late. Stella came so hard, tears filled her eyes from the pleasure and because she knew, she knew…
She pulled her skirt back down, and rushed past Elijah. She knew his scent and his touch as real this time, and not the times she had imagined them.
He held her thigh, stood up and whispered as she tried to push past him.
“Are you still afraid Stella? Are you feeling menaced?”
She kneed him in the groin, he covered his mouth.
Stella ran because she was afraid for a myriad of reasons…

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